Hello, New Chapters.
I’m not even announcing a major life change. I’m just turning 40, and I sense that as an eventful decade of my life ends, it’s the start of something even better.
I’ve always loved my birthday, and I never really had a hang up about numbers. Until I turned 35. That one was tough. And 40 was messing with my head more than a little, as well. But over the last couple of weeks I’ve gotten a new perspective.
Instead of dreading “getting older” and “leaving my youth behind,” I’m choosing to be grateful for the last decade of experiences. It was a decade of growth, of gaining wisdom. A decade that was crucial to forming me into the woman I’m meant to be.
My 30s brought me:
- Independence. When I was 30, we made the decision to move to Idaho. It’s hard to believe that 10 years (in September) have passed since we moved away from everything I ever knew. And for almost 2 years I held things together in the home while my husband worked in another state. It was isolating to be an at-home mom, not knowing anyone, trying to find places to fit and people with whom to connect. Now that I’m a single mom,I’m grateful for the experience!
- Handcraft. I was always interested in creating, but in my 30s I really started to explore making things, and making them in my own way. I like solving problems and puzzles, and whether I’m knitting or cross stitching, I’m frequently trying to figure out how to create or assemble or fit an idea into the fiber in my hands. This has become not only a way to express myself, but also a way to give to others.
- Heartache. My marriage ended. Hard realities I avoided for years refused to be ignored any longer. I was forced to look at myself, at the previous 13 years of my life, and wonder how long I’d lied to myself about our relationship. Where can I find gratitude in that? Keep reading…
- Restoration. When I thought I was going to live as a depressed, bitter woman for the rest of my life, God got through to me. He gave me a new choice to make. He showed me that there was hope for my future – for myself and my children. I had already been a believer for many years. But this was my personal moment, when God changed me. I stopped trying to live to please myself and started looking for ways to please Him.
- Career. I’ve always wanted to be part of something. I’m a teammate, a partner. And I’m so glad I have the opportunity to work in a unique field that satisfies my geeky side.
- Writing. I think I started my first blog in my late 20s, but it was in my 30s that I embraced the format for sharing my thoughts on craft, and now on faith and Scripture. I have been journaling during my study times for the last couple of years – this is something I didn’t think I could do. But I really love it.
My 30s taught me that I’m capable, but I have to rely on God. He took my broken heart and began to stitch it back together. He gave me back my voice, in so many ways. I’m moving forward into the next decade so grateful for the lessons I learned, and excited to see what He wants me to do next!